Welcome to August…
Sitting quietly without any “distraction” is a challenge.
What distractions am I talking about? Phones, computers, books, paper & pencil, music, food, piles…er…collections (more about this at a later date) of topics/ideas/stuff.
Just sitting. Maybe with a warm beverage (coffee!!) but just being quiet and observing what is around me. Be mindful (over-used word today) and aware of my surroundings but trying to not form and thoughts or judgments about it. Being a bystander and observer. Only “participating” by “being” in my surroundings.
Being able to be lost in thought space with no coherent path or trail of thoughts. Letting the spark of imagination or the noticing of nature move me as if I were a leaf floating on top of a river.
So hard.
Then it hits me…why? Why try this extremely difficult (for me) activity? Why not forego it and get moving and doing?
Perhaps it’s because I do not spend any quality time with myself. I focus on others and tasks…the “shiny” things that grab my attention and leave me in the background. I lead an unexamined life.
Granted too much examination (self-analysis tests et al) can lead…nowhere. It may provide an “Ah-Ha” moment but if not used and remembered daily, it leads down the misty trails of easily forgotten, once-off moments.
Is it fear that keeps me from taking this time? Is it the unasked-for burden of tasks and ideas of things to do? Is it something in my past, present or anticipated future that keeps me from sitting still?
Don’t know…and that is probably the best reason to keep trying.
To take 15 minutes to sit and just…be.
How else will I take time to see who I have become?
Now I need ask myself, do I really care? At the end of life, will this be a death bed regret?
Don’t know…and again, maybe that is good enough to give it another go.
So, here’s to spending quality time with my thoughts…
…to no longer be lost in thought space but comfortable in my space.
Are you comfortable in your thought space?